Just Breathe

I usually find myself reflecting on the events of the previous 12 months right about this time of year. I have done some reflecting, but as of late I find myself at a loss for words and just trying to remember to breathe. Life often takes us in directions we had no intention of heading and to places we thought we'd never see. I never thought I'd be living with my momma again, and yet here I am. I'm not complaining, just observing. I am grateful for the help with the kids and having my mommy to talk to at the end of the day. Made the big move to Pasco and so far so good. The job's ok, meeting new people and making some friends.
I've decided this morning that instead of focusing on the bad, I'm going to embrace the good. For those of you who know, this is not always an easy feat for me.
I got an e-mail this morning from my friend Kacy who is overseas until February. Just the thought of seeing him soon makes me smile. He is always so positive, even in the midst of fighting someone else's war. My little girl woke me up with a kiss at 6:30 this morning and though I'm not a morning person, it sure did warm my heart. I had a dream last night that my dad (Bryce) was in town and I have not seen him in what seems like forever; just got off the phone with him and he's home for the day. I get to see Katie today, but not for coffee. We are having a girl's day which we rarely do, so I'm excited. My kid's have started their new school and the transition seems to be going well; I was so worried it would be more difficult, but my children never cease to amaze me. They are so resilient; they are smart, outgoing, friendly, enthusiastic, not bad looking if I do say so myself. All in all they are beautiful and that makes me smile. 
There are things I miss and will continue to yearn for that I can never have. A few friends lost along the way, one in particular that will forever leave a hole in my heart. I think about him everyday. This morning seems to be harder for some reason. Most days thoughts of him make me smile and today they do as well; the smile is simply to hide the pain today. 
I guess when I really think about it there is so much beauty around me and so much to be thankful for. On days like today, I often don't believe that it can be so difficult to find things to be grateful for